Dec. 11th update

I've had such a hard time getting a few minutes away to get this update posted. The boys get so wired this time of year, I love the excitement. Thankfully my sweet husband had compassion on me this morning and took both boys with him to church early so I could get ready by myself and not have to turn on a video game or movie or meet the "boredom" plea.

Anyway, update time. 

On Wednesday night (the night before my Dr. appt.) I was sound asleep when a little one came in needing help. As I got up to put him back to bed a scripture was running thru my head. Proverbs 3:5 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding."

It had been so long since I had read that scripture that I didn't even know where to find it the next morning.... I knew it was the Lord. 

I got to drive to UCLA by myself in my cute convertible and that was so wonderful (except for the hideous traffic). I enjoyed it so much. I had to leave at about 5:45 am so it was still dark, but as I drove over the pass and reached the top of the hill, I was left breathless... I could see the sun rising over the ocean as I looked into the valley of Santa Barbara and there was no fog, no clouds just a pink sky and a still sleepy city. It was amazing. I had my worship music on and I just knew it was my gift from the Lord. I love watching the sunrise! I got to stop and get my special treat of a peppermint mocha from Starbucks, and I drove into the sunrise just worshipping the Lord for the next hour (until I reached traffic). I kept proclaiming that scripture over my heart, preparing myself for more Dr. information.

As I got to UCLA I saw the first Dr. She is the other surgeon who will do the initial work of getting the primary surgeon into the area where the tumor is. She was very kind and did an initial exam on me. She said I have a deviated septum, thus the horrible snoring and said she would take care of all that while she was in there.... I'm getting a nose job! ;O)

Then I headed down the hall to the endocrinologists office. He talked to me about the medicine part of all this.... Since my surgery is only 3 1/2 week's away he didn't recommend any medication (good news) but he did say that he wanted to have another MRI report before surgery! I'm thrilled about this... another chance to peek inside just in case there is no surgery needed. I want to give the Lord every opportunity to take it away before surgery. I didn't think I would get another one, but since he offered I was thrilled to accept. It means another trip to UCLA before surgery, but it is what it is....

I had to guard myself from fear. They have a lot of "what if's" and "maybe's" that could possibly happen and I had to remind myself of what the Lord has said so I didn't go into fear. One thing they said was that there is a possibility that the chance to have children is gone..... I have had so many words spoken over me to the contrary that I "armed" myself with those as they spoke. Then when they were done I went out to the waiting room to wait for another piece of paper and as I was waiting I looked at the time on my phone. It said Dec. 11 11:11 am. I thought that was cool and immediately the Lord said "Hebrews". So I turned to Hebrews 11:11 and I knew it was the Lord's confirmation to my spirit. It says:

"By faith Abraham, even though he was past age - and Sarah herself was barren - was enabled to become a father because he considered him faithful who made the promise." 

The Lord just said "remember, they don't know the beginning from the end, I do, and I am faithful." So I took my two scriptures and I just proclaimed them over myself the rest of the day and by the time I got home I was so encouraged.

It was an unusually warm day and so when I reached Santa Barbara I put the top down and drove over the pass with the sunshine and the warm wind and I just sang those scriptures back to the Lord. As I was putting the top down in my convertible the Lord reminded me of what Ethan had said when we got the convertible..... 

"If God can give us a convertible, He can definitely answer out tumor prayer and our baby prayer"

No doubt.