God makes all things beautiful in it's time.

I waited paitently for the Lord and He inclined to me, and heard my cry. 

He also brought me up out of a horrible pit, 

Out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my steps. 

He has put a new song in my mouth - praise to our God; 

Many will see it and fear, and put their trust in the Lord. 

Psalm 40: 1-3

The Lord gave me this scripture several years ago when we were here on vacation praying about a possible move here for a pastor position. I was basically begging God to say "yes" so I wouldn't have to go back to Santa Ynez. He gave me this scripture and I just saw myself up to my waist in the miry clay and asking the Lord how he was going to free me.

Over the years and months I've gone back to that scripture and prayed it back to the Lord. Everytime I see myself in that horrible pit and unable to free myself but just proclaiming that I won't be there forever, somehow, someday I will be out of the horrible pit, but practicing singing that new song so that I don't stay stuck.

This morning I read that amazing Psalm and for the first time in 4 years since I got that scripture I realized I was reading it on the other side. I was reading it with my feet firmly planted on the rock, with a new song in my mouth!!! Oh it felt so amazing.

We have reached some major milestones here in Bend. 

1- We've been pre-approved for  a home loan so we can begin looking for that house of our dreams for the first time in our married lives.

2- We are enjoying the weather, friends, family and home the Lord has blessed us with.

3- This week we found out we are pregnant with baby #3.

This last one was especially pivotal for us because we have been wanting another baby for many many years. Our youngest Micah will be 6 in a few weeks and since his birth we have had two devastating miscarriages and then countless disappointments with the tumor rendering my body unable to get pregnant. In fact at one of my appointments before surgery my endocrinologist said that he wasn't even sure that I would ever be able to conceive. After that Dr. appointment I was sitting in the waiting room and just breaking off those words, declaring that the Lord has made my womb fruitful and I looked at my phone and the date was 11-11-08 and it was 11:11am. I asked the Lord for the significance and He told me to look up Hebrews 11:11 So I did. It said "Abraham..... considered Him faithful who made the promise" Then the Lord said "you can't listen to the limited knowledge of the Dr. you have to listen to what I say because I am outside of time and I know today from tomorrow". 

So here we are. We've come full circle. The amazing thing is I have no sign of any kind of morning sickness, and I'm full of energy, all of which is miraculous. 

The fact that the Lord would redeem this week for my family the week that my dad was diagnosed with cancer 3 years ago... turning our mourning into dancing, our weeping into laughter.

We are rejoicing.